09:21 PM – Friday
End of a month always gets me excited. It’s a new chance for me to change, a sort of like a fresh start, you know?
Anyway, this end of month is extra special in two ways. One, Ramzan would start from 2nd March inshallah and second, this would be the third month in my three month plan. Context below-
At the beginning of January, I sat down and made a three month plan. A list of items that I would have ticked off by the end of March. It’s not very complicated or anything, just something for me to look forward to, to review and see if I’m making progress towards my end of year goals or not.
So, that is that.
Now, February. I must say it was a very excellent month alhamdulillah. I wait for these types of months, I do. This month, three weddings took place. The first two were of my first cousin in the second week of feb and my friend’s nikkah. The third one was of my mamou (uncle) in the second-last, last week of the month. In between, I just tried to study, and managed to complete the fifth draft of Project Swords and sent it to the hopeful agent.
What went well?
Well, I completed the fifth draft of Project Swords and sent it to the agent who I’ve been having a conversation with. (Good conversation).
I also got 7 orders of my book. All were family but still, seven is a big number. It’s better than 0 anyway.
I have started studying for my A – levels again. I’m going to finish my college this year (inshallah inshallah) and I may join a good university to study psychology or maybe I’ll take a break. A gap year to focus on writing.
I had loads of fun. Alhamduillah. Dear reader, I had so much fun. I had such great conversations, such great memories stored up in my head that I replay them over and over again. I hope to never lose these memories. I hope I never do and I hope I get to make more. I remind myself sometimes to enjoy the time I have. To enjoy my morning peace or my routine. I don’t know how long this will last, and I have no power to keep everything this way. It will change, inevitably, It surely will. I just hope I don’t get too much wind up in my work and becoming something in life that I forget to cherish life along the way.
What went wrong & how I can fix them?
My biggest weakness. Biggest. Time management. I cannot understand how to manage time. I would assign myself a task and underestimate the time it would take me to get ready. Hence, I’m late. I would overestimate my ability to finish a task. Hence, I’m late. The task is left like that and then I have to rush through it. This same happened when I was completing Project Swords draft 5. I had to rush through the last few chapters and I think I left a bit of plot holes unsolved. I didn’t even read through because I had to send it to the agent.
I have no idea how I can fix this. Maybe, to give myself baby tasks? Cut them into smaller units and spread them over the days? I’ll have to try that but this problem needs to be fixed. I’m very annoyed by it now.